I'm No Longer Myself Poem by Paris Thulare

I'm swinging on alcohol,
Puffing smoke from day to dawn,
Locomoting up steetsto downtown,
Inquisitoring forthat one pill.
Such pill to avail me sleep
But the doctors say they havesuch prescriptions.

I wake up everyday with chiliad of declinations,
Accompanied by a storm of gazillion wishes,
But still, this life keeps going.

I'm no longer myself no!
my gullet always craves to deglutite something,
In the greeting of the sunlight
And the dawn of midnight
Who am i really? ?

I once took a stand in life,
Saw myself in such perfect family kind,
But it seems to me, i'm just against time.

I looked while my companionsdying, helpless
I failed to pay heed at each funi..
I got broken relationships,
But still i fail to fix,
Now i got some bad habits i can't modify.

Such plane of success once booked, crushed in the middle of nowhere.
Today im here chasing this, that and the next after,
How about this disease eating me in inches avery day,
And still, the insomnia has no mercy for me.

I act smiley with such big belly
Wearing white teeth that speak hello tunes
But im dying, slowly
Alone, with nobody noticising
Who Am I, really