I Need To Know Why Poem by Ann Kinyua

Giggles here, laughter there,
A smile here and there.
There's happiness everywhere but here:
Within me there's sorrow.
But why?
Do I let my intuition control me?
My inhibitions?
Or is it the voices in my head that won't shut up?
Is it the world?
Or maybe that it's my heart that is so full of love yet so broken.
Wait a minute!
I speak my mind, maybe that's why.
I am too honest yet some say it's rudeness,
Maybe that's why.
But no!
I have loved trully,
Trusted blindy,
Been soon loyal.
Is it my goodness?
My kindness?
Maybe it's all the mistakes that I have made.
I need to know why,
Why there is so much pain within me.