I Should Have... Poem by Norden Lama

I wish if I could go back to the very first time,
When you looked into my eyes.
I should’ve made some move that time,
Should’ve avoided the mistake of meeting of our eyes.
Cos, it was at that moment,
When something hit me.
Though I was busy in making plans,
But love is unpredictable,
And soon we talked,
And we walked together.
And one day, we confessed each other.
But, when I was telling you, ’ I love you’
I never knew you were going to take the rest of my life,
I thought you terribly need me by your side.
But now as I can see,
That you can live without me.
And that I cannot.
It shouldn’t have rain that time,
I shouldn’t have done hurry in holding your hand.
I haven’t seen you for ages,
I heard, you talk with somebody else.
We were together in our happiness,
But you stayed away when I was in my woes.
I thought you be with me always,
But way you treat me,
Has become different in all ways.
There is nothing like before,
I shouldn’t have kept loving you ever more.
I should have avoided this confusion,
I should’ve made some variation in my ways.
I talked and talked and talked,
Expressed and expressed and expressed,
But I didn’t see that you were done with my feelings,
I shouldn’t have said you, all my true feelings,
Should’ve adulterated some unearthly lyrics.
Today yours and mine ways are odd.
Our opinion ‘bout life has become different.
It is definitely hard to let you go.
Overall, it’s your demand.
I should’ve never come across you.
I should’ve avoided this collision.
I should’ve been more active
Had I made that move of neglecting you,
But as everything worse has already occurred,
I bear to live with this illusion.