I Was Hiding In The Shower Poem by Guarded Heart

No one could figure it out
'Aren't you better off now, why are you crying? '
Well step into me and feel the pain i am feeling
I can't escape the questions, the feelings, the pain, the memories
none of it will leave me, my make up smeared away days ago
I can't eat, i'm sitting here, wasting away into nothing
I'll admit it i'm running, i look for relief in hot water
Furiously scalding, i need a new source of pain
One i can see, i'm in the shower, hiding

Under steady water, i feel obselete
Burning sensation floods down my skin
Leaving it's mark, much like my foolish sin
You can't guess the pain i'm in
After n half an hour, i know i can't stay like this
I turned off the shower and grabbed a towel
All the while tears streaming down my face
At least he can't see me this way
I cower to the floor, holding myself, i have no one to hold me now
No one here can put there arms around me
I cry by myself

It would be nice if i could stay here
On the floor amidst my tears
Maybe it would all go away
I wish i knew what was happening
I wish you were here with me