I Wonder...Is It...Or Could It Be Poem by Hec Stewart

The question of what keeps me moving
What wakes me and makes me continue
What persuades me to more forward, while
Coping with the things I’ve already been thru
I ponder this thought as I lay in my bed staring
at the darkness that surrounding my being
wishing that these answers will appear out
of that same empty darkness that I am seeing
but to no avail, so internally I scream and wail
hollering the black agony at the top of my spirit
praying that if I’m loud enough, the answers
to my undying question will possibly hear it
I wonder…is it hope? ?
Is it hope for a better self and world around
that keeps my head to the sky even as I walk
with my heart suffocating in my throat and
my faith dragging lifelessly along the ground
Hope that with my efforts and dedication maybe
somewhere in someone I’ll spark a revolution in a heart,
showing them that to preserve life a change must be made
and to see that change they change they must play a part
Or…is it pain? ?
Is it the pain of enduring the hurtful and unbearable
The pain of a possible reality that what’s come is now gone
And there’s nothing for me to do so I might as well move on
The pain I feel when I look to the streets and see my people’ pain
Watching them being followed by clouds of ignorance and destruction
that continues to keep my people drenched in it’s downpour of rain
Or could it be love? ?
Is love the reason I toss and turn in my sheets
Is love the answer to what keeps me provoked
Keeping me up at night while simultaneously
Keeping my thoughts distorted and my pillow soaked
The love of being completed…the love of being taken
by the one I cherish, want, and have always needed
the love and union of one I could never duplicate
the one matched with my heart, my soul mate
What is it?
The question of what keeps me moving
What wakes me and makes me continue
What persuades me to more forward, while
Coping with the things I’ve already been thru
Is it hope… is it pain….is it love
Now I see, its not one or the other,
Its all of the above…