If A Woman Knew Poem by Victoria Gauci

If a woman knew in advance,
The heartache she would feel,
When her children turn their back,
On all she knew was real,

She would change her mind abruptly,
Before deciding to have a child,
She would turn and run away,
Like a wolf within the wild,

Although the joys and smiles come,
Within the world of birth,
The pain and sorrows fill the soul,
And beat down her self worth,

I know it isn't always so,
For every mother who bears children,
But there are those who do their best,
And yet suffer painful burdens,

Everyone keeps telling me,
That one day they'll come around,
My heart is carrying so much pain,
That is drags upon the ground,

I keep writing about it to save myself,
But there is no relief in sight,
I can't force them to talk to me,
God knows I've tried with all my might,

Each day I live my spirit weakens,
But I hide my pain from others,
Embarrassed to say I feel this way,
That I wish I wasn't a mother.