If I Killed Myself And You Knew? Poem by If I say Im lost, Would you come find me

If I told you I wanted to leave never to return.
Would you let me?
If I told you I want to be lost forever and never be found.
Would you still try to find me?
If I told you I wanted to escape and run from here.
Would you help me?
If I told you I wanted to cry till my eyes wouldn't any more.
Would you hold me tight and tell me that your there for me?
If I told you I wanted to kill myself right now.
Would you try to stop me or talk me out of it?
or
Would you think Im just upset and not take me seriously?
.........
So if I did and you were the last person I talked you and you knew everything,
you knew I wanted to and I actually did it,
and the next day I wasn't a school,
i wasn't at home,
i wasn't at a friends,
but i was in a black bag being carried out the door of my house.
while my parents are stunned,
dumfounded,
and confused and crying.
Would you believe me then?
Would you still think Im just upset,
or mentally unstable,
or I just have a hard life.
Would you take me seriously then?
Would you feel bad because you were the last one i talked to?
Would you care at all?
Would you cry to yourself because you could have stopped me,
but simply though it was a joke?
Would you look at yourself the same,
if i killed myself and you knew?