If Only Poem by Solomon Kobela

It feels like time goes by slow
I lost a part of me
I lost a lot of you
Im Stuck in a moment
What was and sadly cant be
At times i feel alone. Sometimes i wonder...
When other times i yearn for what could have been
Other times i Lus for what was
and back and forth the feeling swings
Wish i could screem and in that instant get rid of the memories
But they are there haunting or making me smile
The why's and who go about in cycles.
I wanna move on but not wholeheartedly
I wanna go back but i wonder
I wish for many things and yes you are one of them
At times, i wish we never met
For once something so beautifully confuming
Is now furiously combustive on thought
Time heals they say, it feels the other way around to me
And as i sit and ponder over the happenings
I wish not to think nor remember all that was.
If only
If i could i would turn the clock.
Maybe change a few things
Maybe go opposite.......
MAYBE,
If only, maybe.....HEAL!