If Only I Could Poem by poeticgirl 100993

if only i could tell how much you mean to me
there's no reason for me to suffer from this misery
if only i have the strength to fight my stupidity
this body can resist to fall against your gravity.

if only i could tell that you are my second love
who cut this tired heart of mine into bleeding halves
and there it comes our so-called gaps
that tell us that at this time, we should take our endless naps.

if only this hurt, i could loudly scream
'cause this broken me really feels so much grieve
if only i could hit every corner's rim
to lessen the pain running through my limbs.

if only i could cry in front of you
for making me feel worthless like others do
but i realized that i was struck by a cruel glue
that i responded to you, now that it's already too overdue.

if only i could speak how painful is this
for choosing her and the bitterness doesn't ease
if only this feelings can be gone by just whispering at the breeze
there's no need to worry for all i feel is bliss.

if only i could stop my stubborn pen in writing
there are no sensitivities that should be 'worth' remembering
if only i could control my hand and these absurd feelings
it is not you, nor me..I'm indignantly blaming.: (