If Only You Knew Poem by alysha renee'

as i sit here, the thought of slitting my wrists becomes so pleasurable,
its orgasmic
every time i turn around im being called selfish, incompetent,
every time i turn around im being called out my name
no one expects me to retaliate?
ha. if you only knew this game.
just come a lil closer and i'll burn you with my anger; ; leave you numb with my hate
i'll drown you in my tears and sorrow....if only you knew this game.
if only you knew, you'd lay your hand down and quit
oh no, i dont mean to seem full of it.
but baby, i've been playin' since the day out i was spit
and you dont even know the half of it.