~if You Decided Today~ Poem by Sara Sulja

If you decided today that

You want to rip your heart out

And let it bleed over my hands

Scratch your eyes out and not feel the pain

You want to die and live only to die again

But the pain is what matters to you

It’s what makes it right

If you decided today that

You want to open your veins

And let all your emotions go

Seeing your blood everywhere makes it right

I’m on the other side of the glass wall

You not letting me in to help

Pounding on the wall tears down my face

I’m trying to care trying to help

I’m trying to escape from myself

Blood is everywhere, spilt on the ground

You think maybe not today maybe tomorrow

But today I’ll let a little of the pain out

In the place of blood

With the cut of the blade

But should you?

When they are humans who know

Humans who are the same as you

Having all their feelings and emotions

But they are on the edge

And not only with a blade

If you decided today that

You would end what you started before

Behind that closed door

You would choose to die

I don’t want to sit and cry

And wonder if it was my fault

Or you just thought life sucked

Would you leave others in more pain then you would be in?


From someone who cares