Im Better Off Here Poem by miriam alencaster

when im with my mom theres always tears coming down my face
i think she does it with very much embrace
my dad treats me like a real person
thats why theres no reason to curse him
shes yells at me from day to night
which leaves me with alot of fright
sometimes i bleed sometimes i bruise
i still can believe she would do that, thats so cruel
she doesnt like the fact i want to live with him
she doesnt like his house, his money, or his kin
i love seeing my dad smile
it makes me wanna stay a while
i can talk to them when im sad
so i wont be that mad
when im with her i sometimes think of ending my whole life
i even sometimes even try to end it with the tip of every knife
sometimes im left with bruises, some blood some cuts some scaries
i think this wouldnt happen if she didnt go to bars
i feel like im used to get money
so my mother can go spend it on my sister and her new honey
i hate how she says im insecure and dont believe in myself
if she just sat down to think about it shes explaining her own self
i have alot of things that i can not say
thats one of the reasons i dont wanna stay
i cant tell her certain things because she'll end up hurting me
she always says she loves me, how can all this be
the things she says to me are bad
they make me feel so sad
i mean the cuts and bruises go away
but all the memories of how they happened will always stay...