Indecisive..... Poem by RIC BASTASA

i lost the key
i think it fell inside
that taxi
which i took from the house
to the airport

for i am living to
Cambodia
i have promised
the monks
for my needed retreat

and for a time
i may think of leaving
you finally

you have to be on
your own
and i must be on my
own too

did we not utter
the word independence?
did we not say
it is time to part ways?


i told the driver
my key is inside that
seat
it fell there

and i think how
inconsistent i have become
trying to find a key
and retrieving still
what i think i do not
need

what is that key for?
i have already closed my door
and i have no plan
opening it again

let them destroy the lock
as i am not coming back


i am unreasonable perhaps
the taxi driver took time
looking for the key
and then he found it and
gave it to me

instincts perhaps
i dislike it... i still have it
this key inside my pocket

faraway from home
perhaps i shall throw this
sometime....