Inside This Soul Poem by Maria Jose Garcia

You see me smile
And never guess
What goes on
Inside my head.

The gloom, the fear,
The bursting clouds.
The deafening thunder,
The lonely ghosts.

I walk through life
Like any other.
You see me smile,
Think we are alike.

But my torn soul,
It hides a secret.
Each step I take
Is a labour of love.
Each laugh, each day
Is coated in loss.

It all started so long ago,
I have forgotten
What normal is.
You see me smile
And think I'm lucky.
I have it all.

Do not call me ungrateful.
I love my life,
Even if I have to tear at my insides
To be a woman,
Or just to
Go on.
Holding all this rain
Inside my head.