Internal Choice Poem by Jon M. Nelson

As I search down deep into my soul,
I wonder if I can make it on my own.
I wonder where in life I have a role,
I need to know if I should be all alone.

Will I ever need somebody by my side?
Must I always have someone with me there?
With whom my deepest thoughts shall I confide?
My life, with someone else, must I always share?

As I look back upon my life and deeply reflect,
I wonder to myself, just exactly where did I go wrong?
Not knowing what, in the future I should ever expect.
Shall I always remain alone, or with someone should I belong?

Why does it feel, that I always have to rush?
Exactly what am I always afraid to lose?
How come it always seems like I need to push?
Why does it always seem so difficult to choose?

My ego, I seem to always have to rise above.
I should always listen to my deep inner voice.
When it comes down to it, and push comes to shove,
Now stand I must, and here make this final choice.