Internal Sleep Poem by Nathan Barkley

Isn't a person just a person?
Yet why are feelings fusing with my heart
I know the dangers
I try to drown myself with anger
It won't stop!
I'm in shock
I think i have been cursed
your eyes strike my heart like a thunderbolt
Trying to ignore these feelings
Masking the heart with a cold, black metal
but the beauty you hold keeps on revealing
the pure light i have for you
Thinking the feeling is a weakness,
though my heart says it makes me strong
The things I'm doing is it ridiculous?
and is these feelings wrong?

My heart flew like a dove
when you came to me and said it was love
It seemed like a perfect love scene
A perfect love song
but I knew it was just a dream
So leave me in this internal sleep
I don't want to go back to reality
This illusion i'm going to keep