Is That Mine Or Your Mirror Poem by achilles amelie magnolia

'i adored you', say's my past
'i thought so highly of you, i wanted to be you so soon'
my eyes cried and i laughed at it's lie.
why must i be so sad, it's pathetic
i used to like falling, the blue abyss of my mind
sweet silence in my boarded up lightless window in my room
'why must you hurt me, why must i hurt'
i feel pain to you pathetic worthlessness! i shout at my mirror
i went through, do not tell me it will come back
it laughs, it laughs at me.

for i was the one laughing, yet now i'm scared
will it come back, will this happiness go away
by god, it is not to last?
why not, why not! i want this
i deserve this, this happiness, right?

no, no, do not torment me further!
i will not last, i am so tired, i'm weak now
the vulnerable this strength has made me
yet i fell, i took my time, now up, you want me put down?
we are one of the same, yet, you're the child
and i'm the monster under your bed and in your closet
now longer blue, i've been painted green