Issues Poem by Suicidal Happiness

Swear to me that you will never die
Promise me that you will tell me your reasons why
Tell me the truth, not the lies you fed me as a child
Tell me why you were so reckless and wild
Why do you hate my existence and all that I am?
You always told me that you love me and you were my best friend
Why did you let me hate my own father?
If you want to pretend some more don’t even bother
You and I will never be ok
The heart ache plays on my mind everyday
The guilt that I hate rules my life
That’s why my heart bleeds under a knife
You made me hate myself and everyone around me
I always let you down, not being how you wanted me to be
So frustrated that I can’t breathe
I’m so tired and I can’t sleep
The annoyance gets to me my mother dear
Don’t you worry my mother I’ll never again be here