It Hurts Poem by Ghost Legend

I really miss you and it hurts
It'll always hurt
Always has hurt
And you're right
It's the idea of you
Because the reality only hurts me some more
You don't care about me
I doubt you ever did
And while you found love in other people
I still can't find anyone else truly attractive besides you
And why is that?
Are you even really all that?
Is it really even your looks?
It might be, but I still think
That it was the way you treated me
That cast a spell that I can't escape
And I wish I could just find anyone
Anything to help me escape what I feel for you
But I can't
I lost everything in my life
And I still can't escape the way you make me feel
I don't even like your stupid attitude
Your stupid shenanigans
Pretending to be everything edgy besides your own self
And I know that you faked your kindness
Faked your love for me
Faked everything
But I still wish I could see you smile
See your beautiful eyes
and get lost in them
I hate what I feel for you
I hate what you did to me
I hate everything that I am