It Left Me Poem by Dexter Neve

The life I loved left me
It Left me years ago
‘The life thats left isn't that bad at all'

I said this to myself no more than five years ago
And now I say the opposite
‘this life has got to go'

My friends say it's fine
the life I'm forced to live
They say there's nothing wrong
And yet
one of them still agrees with me

They ask me how I am
I say that I am fine
But only one of them knows the truth
About how I feel with the knives

The knives they bring me release
They help me escape from reality
They help bring me pain and joy

The knives
They understand me
They help me to come closer
to life I sadly lost

The life that brings me joy
The life I wish I'd never lost