It's Done Me No Good! Poem by Amanda Clark

F*** the world it's done me no good
Brings pain with every mintue im on it
I have pain every minute I live, every moment i BREATH, from the moment i was born all happiness left me!
I have years to live but moments pass i do nothing.
How can i live like this?
Why do I live life but take little risks.
When I take the big risks I lose it all
It's been 1 month and 2 weeks took a Risk and lost it all
I not longer have self dignity
I have no self worth
I have lost a friend and the happiness he brang
I think the worst part of it all was that I lost so much and it seems like he's lost so little
Why do I toss and turn in the night, feelings of restlessness, feelings of shame
I'm finding someone to blame
At last I thought i found something i wanted and someone who i needed but i wreaked it all!
I lost it all, i don't think we had it all but I still took a hard fall!
But thats what happens in life
With every moment that passes I feel less pain
I might have nothing to gain from this experience or anyother
Because from where i stand my dignity is on the floor
I have to pick it up piece by piece, Its not easy but i can do it!
I am strong and won't lose hope that one day i'll be whole again!