It Was Always You Poem by Lavender Angel

Love; a divine feeling as they say
Tell you what I felt, if I may
Love; I called him

He was as handsome as....
I couldn't tell you what
Since there was no one and nothing as close to that
I was lost in his beauty
While I never realised I lost him
And all the while he was busy
Trying to fulfill his duties

All the effort, all the time, all the patience
All the understanding and misunderstanding
All the problems, all the solving and all the pain
How could I ever forgive myself for everything that went in vain

No one believed it
No friends, no teachers, not even ourselves
That we could ever end up together
But guessed only time could tell
Knew we weren't meant to be
But isn't it wrong not to try?
We tried to be the best we can be
Never succeeded and all I did was cry

Being with you was the hope that kept me living
Still I have that hope but without it I would've been happy
Happier would be the right word
Happier than I am now
Without you I could never be truly happy
And deep inside I know you don't hope the same

Now here I lay in my living room
Ironic how I feel so dead inside
All soaked up in my gloom
And knowing deep in my heart, that you lied