It Was Never Me It Was Always Him Poem by Diego Adrian Manriquez

It’s when his name that is floating in the the air,
I stop from breathing,
I choke on it,
What if I leave and talk my way back in?
Will you finally love me?
Or still be confused?
What if I never wanted this?
I could never take it back,
You and I know he is all you need,
Its like no matter what he does its always right,
Everything I do is just a ignored and pushed away,
It is easy to see that your love doesn’t belong to me,
It stops my heart,
To think that I’ll never have you,
It hurts to dream,
When you don’t believe in me,
I was to scream when I see you and him,
When you said you’d leave,
I’d never expect for you to go crawling back,
To the path of broken glass,
But the first time you cut your feet,
The second time around you’ll probably never recover,
I just miss the things you used to tell me,
Silence and absoulty nothing left,
And you never really said a word,
I’m afraid of falling....
And you seem to be the same,
He is always waiting to catch you everytime you dropp the truth,
He is ready to save you from the blue,
He can make your dreams come true,
If you could see what he does you’d be surprised,
His blood is covered in jelously,
My heart is almost done pumping,
I hate the way you’d sit there and say,
“I’m over him, I never knew how much you meant to me.”
Get over yourself and fall face first,
To his feet,
Its easy to see you’d rather be with him than me,
And I’m not mad I just can’t stand seeing you with him,
I’m going to try and let go,
When you grab on it might be too late,
Years too late.