J Poem by Jessie Stowers

I don't know how to feel,
Heartbreak controlling my life.
You seem to make the pain less real,
The dull edge of the knife.

I'd be lying if I said,
I'd be okay if you disappeared.
Everything is blurry in my head,
This is exactly as I'd always feared.

Damn it I miss him,
With my heart soul and mind.
The sun could never get more dim,
But to me you remain kind.

No one can heal me,
Just the way he built me up.
I set my expectations free,
At the time of that breakup.

No more special someones,
Though I know to you it isn't fair.
Emotions more sour now than lemons,
I find it really hard to care.

The pain overruns and flows,
Out of me in every breath.
My despair only grows,
I now seem to reek of death.

You appear to be,
The eye of the tornado.
If only you could see,
All to you I owe.

Calm me down and talk,
Get the humor in me started.
My demons we will mock,
Not again will they be tempted.

Somehow you save me,
Time after never-ending time.
Depression and hurt leave me be,
I don't quite feel I'm out of my mind.
- Jessie Stowers - 15 -