Joshua Poem by KIMBERLY FINE

I was exhausted when they laid you in my arms,
Ever so I did not feel my instant bond with you.
Why didn't this happen the first moment we touched?
Maybe after some rest this feeling I would accrue.

I only thought of resting while they separated us,
many hours of work and in seconds divided.
I watched while they prepared you for your intro,
it felt like an eternity had passed while I waited.

Relief came as they brought you back to my embrace,
Just as quickly an overwhelming fear came over.
No time for thoughts all of your visitors rushed in,
I dozed off while listening to their endless banter.

When I awoke alone all emotions took control,
why must I experience this upsetting void?
More troubling where was that feeling of absolute,
without warning I became progressively annoyed.

After we returned home I held you as you slept,
All the while inside festering mere jealousy.
I'll I wanted was to love you without exception,
Just as all the mothers do to the highest degree.

I was in awe watching you, completely peaceful,
too peaceful; in a panic I nudged you without delay.
I felt my heart stop when I thought you lost your breath,
that instant I realized I had what I thought was astray!

KIMBERLY FINE