# ' Journal Entries For October 2008' Poem by Daffodil Decarie

Oct.11 2008 I wrote:

Every night-
I kill myself slowly.
As I exhale the smoke
and watch the -wind of secret-
blending-in and hide my tears
as I listen to my old man
grinding teeth, moaning the agony of
pain and suffering. Of which I am weak
to wrench away from him.

Every night-
I howl at the void above each smoke
I exhale
and damn my tongue until it hangs
like -that- of a loud mutes one.
And not even total exhaustion of
my heart and mind prevents my soul
from -asking- the dark sky
[who happen to often seem illumined by
an elusive crescent moon]-
Not even total exhaustion of
any kind, prevents me from asking!
'how long will it take
for redemption to come? ' -I need-
'Need I call the Delivery-man? ! '


Oct.08 2008

Taking deep breaths
while thinking of you I feel like
a song-learning bird
singing love song
for the first time.

Oct.05 2008

...If I still love you,
it's not because an early halloween breeze
shattered humankind
into three shadows
[of silly notion] of emptiness.
It's because -ours-
like an hour-glass sand
ascend higher above any man
who walks ahead those shadows.
and bedarn!
our effervescing traces
can't help but ask
if we must land on the hayfield as one
-and-if-not-
must one invite the blade
to cut ones heart into multiple vestiges
of just You or I.
Shall I continue loving you? -
Not because the mule told me so.
But because the nature of -letting go-
is simply drawing lines of -how
and where- we used to.


Hello everyone! ! ! :) been awhile since I greeted all great poets here in poemhunter! Although these entries aren't that uplifting I felt compelled to share them for no apparent reason ;) Take care, all! Happy Halloween