Judgment Day Poem by Percy Flage

I'm being robbed by judgment
Denied a place in
The homecoming of my sister
Whom I have not seen in a year
and which I have awaited for so long
I will not attend
Because 'God'
Because 'Drugs'
Because 'Cis'
Because 'Body'
Because I'm not afraid to be who I am
But being who I am has made me more
Afraid of those I love
Afraid that I will be pushed away
And that my existence will be or might be
Reduced to nothing
Worthless
Unacceptable
This welling pain inside of me
In the place my family was
Is preventing me from continuing
From progressing to a state of equilibrium
All because I don't think things are so black and white
Good, bad
Day or night
Male or Female
It's because I know who I am
And I know who I'm not
And who they think I am, is who I'm not
My identity
The one I've held in my breast pocket
Hidden away from the world
Has finally come out to play
And been rejected
Turned down
And not just picked last
But not picked at all
It's as if I might as well not exist
And if I must, then I need to be reduced to a shadow

(July 4,2012)