Judgmental Change Poem by Joshua Hillard

You see a change and become scared,
You just don’t know what to do,
You become so comfortable when things get better,
But can see when it's being let go,

You try to do all you can,
To eliminate the stress and pain,
It’s beginning to do nothing,
Now you feel as if you’re stuck in the rain,

My heart will never begin to understand,
Why this change is taking effect,
As it affects you it takes a hold of me,
It only makes me wonder on what’s left,

I am holding on because of my heart,
My heart knows this is what it longs for,
But you must not understand like the way you say,
Because all you do is continue to slam the door,

I continue to wait every single day,
Just to let you in and hold you tight,
Is this even what you want anymore?
I worry about this every single night,

I see this change from love to hate,
So tell me why you’re still holding on,
Please, no more excuses,
What is it you truly want?

I wait for you to say so much,
But yet, you say so little,
From love, miss, see, and hold,
It’s only making my heart more brittle,

I fight for you more and more,
To my heart, this is right,
You continue to push it all away,
And now I’m beginning to see your light,

I can see the change,
So why do you continue with me?
Why do you continue to play with my heart?
I’m only waiting to hear what the answer will be.