Lament Before The Eve Poem by lingering stupor

Hast another bell chimes on the eve
Preparations dawn for all who believe
Lest a few who stay behind
Looking back for what they find

In grey cast they hide for not they merry
Only looking at fellows on light feet they ferry
For the morrow is the day they sprite
To bow before the birth of One with might

Clammor and behold the coming day
Bringer of happiness and joy the way
Come they celebrate this past
For all the people to see hear and last

But i am not one of them that wants to see
I stay in the shadows hiding as it be
For the light has once again gone
The shadows solace for my soul left at dawn

I celebrate not what others feel
I celebrate that i cannot unseal
A feeling of pain and anguish inside
Left by the light in the grey that i hide

I bow before You all knowing all wise
Waiting for the day the day that You will rise
I pray hope and fate be merciful to me
So one day i can walk up to You and see

For now steadfast i stay hidden from light
Blinding scorching unable to see from my fright
I fear when the light touches once again the dark
It burns and it singes whats left of my heart

Maybe one day when dusk is upon me
Seek the light go to there i will be
For now the question i still ask
Will the light i seek am able to bask

Tortures and lament i feel always have i
Sorrow and tears companions never goodbye
One day upon me this will surely pass
For good it started as love to ever last

As always silence will be my cheer on the Day
The birth of the One who lifted me not sway
I long for the future when i will voice
It is not for everyone but only my choice

The Day when i will be filled
With the light that i seek and clean of the guilt
I will shout out the loudest for all to hear whats passing
Shout the loudest for all the world to hear of my love that stayed everlasting