Last Night Part 5 Poem by alex manson

i tell myself
that this can't be happening
i try to act like i'm somewhere else
somewhere where this isn't happening.
thoughts in my head
thoughts of you
i feel like i'm completely dead
because i'm missing you.
i wish you were still here
by my side, but you're gone
i shed six hundred more tears
i keep trying and trying to hold on.
i'm nothing without you
i can't live without you
i want you
i need you.
should i pour my heart out to you
or should i hide it from you r ears
i'm scared to say the things i want to
but it's now or never so i should get over my fears.
tonight i will confess
how i truly feel
the lugubrious agony i thought i had rid has regressed
i tell myself all this isn't real.
i wish i could wake up
from this deathly nightmare
i tell my suffering heart to shut up
because you don't even care.
all i've been through
doesn't compare to this degree of hurt
i was just getting to know you
but all of that was thrown in the dirt.