Last Words Poem by Keith Anastase KAMOSSO

I don’t know what I have become
I don’t know who I used to be
What is occurring to me now?
I don’t know if my life will ever be the same again.
I don’t know what my eyes are seeing now
Or what my ears are hearing

I don’t know who I am any longer
I can’t think quietly and clearly about a thing
Why don’t I have an thought of who I am without you?
I don’t know if I will stand on my feet and walk over
I don’t know if I will see you through my eyes again

I don’t know what I used to love
I don’t know if I will care for anything again
I don’t know when I will feel love yet again
I don’t know what my life is rotating into
But I know one thing for sure
I loved you this much

This much to give up my life
This much of unworthy anything
This much of being crazy because of the love
The love I had and still have for you
This much of giving you all I have
My love for you was this much

Sometimes I wonder
Wonder if you are there
Are you there hearing me singing?
Saddest songs are plenty in my head
Every time I try to chill out, my heart bang me out
Tears of flame fall and flow all over my face
My body flame my feelings into ash

I don’t know if you know all of that
The pain of my guts is beyond belief
The misery of my soul is unconceivable
My lime is undesirable
My breathe is painful and unimaginable
I don’t know the future for me

Can you feel how cold I am?
Do you cry as I do every time I think about you?
Are you lonely there by yourself?
Like I have been these days
Are you so strong?
What is like to feel free?
Free from the misery?

Why you doubted my love for you?
Did you look into my eyes and see how it feels like?
My future without was like doom of my days
I don’t know why you can’t understand what I say
But no matter how hard it is
You will always be my girl

Since my love wasn’t what you wanted
Even my death will not bother you
I can’t take this life missing you
I guess Love wasn’t fair for me
I’m sorry to say this but I will be in peace when I’m gone
Time will wash the sorrow away
Don’t feel sorry or guilty

I know this will not change a thing
And I don’t want it to
But I have to tell you that I didn’t love you enough
Enough to let you go like this
Enough seeing you slipping my finger
My love for you was all I had
I guess there is no reason for me to live

I wish I could stop writing and face my destiny
Hell or heaven both are places
Places for angels and for demons
Place for aspirations and passions
Place for desperate hearts and perishing souls
But now I don’t know what place I am going to go



If I could have my last wish
It could be staring closely at you, touching your face, kissing your sweetest lips
Whisper in your ears that I want you more than ever
Hold you tight and feel your arms around me
Feeling the way your heart is beating in your chest
Seeing your wet lips trembling because of love
But I’m afraid I will never have that moment or that wish

I hate love
I hate goodbyes
I hate being myself for loosing you
Let bloody dry out of my veins
I know now it’s the time for my final goodbyes
These are my last words and I will be gone for the time to come

I regret many things in my life
I regret the time I slept
I should had it all with you
Do all thing you want
But I don’t regret that we were along
I don’t regret that I loved you
Because I do still love you
And that’s the reason of my actions