Look Beyond The Cover. Poem by Gordon David

When you look at me, what do you see?
Do you think that I'm living a life of luxury?
I may break into a smile, just occasionally
But I can assure you, it's not easy being me

I'm not bad today, life's never been easy
Alone in my bed, wondering where is she?
You won't catch me crying, unfortunately
I'm so used to holding back the tears lately

I come here, write a bit, I've given up drinking
Don't smoke either, so all I do is some thinking
I've always preferred a sun-rise to a sun-set
My dreams have vanished, I've got space to let

No more bad dreams, I've got that feeling deep in my gut
Memories do fade, doors that were open, now firmly shut
Am I just waiting to die? Perhaps I'm already dead?
Hang on a minute, the dog & goldfish are needing fed

If I was my heart, I'd be knocked down and senseless
If I was my lungs, I'd be burnt out and breathless
I'm still waiting here, and feeling so awfully old
I'm just lying here, because that's what I was told

When the kids have left home, will that be our end?
Will we still be together? Will we stay best of friends?
It's getting quite dark now, this could be my last night
Please come with me once more, and be my shining light.