Lost My Song, So Will You Stay? Poem by Leah Ayliffe

It's been six years since I've been lonely
lonely and in need of a mans company
It's been some while since my heart has known pain
and I find myself alone
alone in the worst way
I was once a child of the brilliant moon
a beam of freedom from the sun
turn the clock to half past autumn
back to summers sweet kiss
what do you need to get high for
when you have everything on earths floor?
My paradise dancing in the sand with my own heart in my hands
breathing in the ecstasy of being free
in my mind
I thought I was chasing diamonds to new lands
I thought I was racing my spirit to higher skies
It took so long to heal what was broken
It took singing many different songs
but I found one little tune
a pretty song that healed my torn ideas and bruised faith
I sang it over and over and over again
in different ways, in different words
with the same melody strolling through the atmosphere
it was me
who I always could be
a portrait of a jazzy dream girl dressed up rad
blowing kisses and peace signs like a 70's disco queen
freedom angel, that's what i want to be
little free bird, a name I wanted to stay
I walked the road paved with my darkest fantasies
I was alive, on fire, falling down the rabbit hole of desire
and then the time came
and turned and moved to a place where i can't pretend
I can't call this happiness
this so called daydream
six was always the number of fate
the sixth month i knew him
the sixth month our birthdays
Gemini twins, we could have guessed the trouble we'd be in
my sixteenth year of breath i finally exhaled
the chains of his deadly love trance
and since this day of escape
it has been six years of finding my way to heaven
I found it
I can barely recall the tragedy of such youthful trials
and yet now, knocking, pounding, on my door
I hear the darkness I have known before
He keeps on calling, keeps on coming around
and its been six years since I let him in
Mr Lonely
He found me again
I could use the likes of you right now
the right man coming into the spotlight at the right time
cigarette dwindling on your lips as you sway to the music
I want you, I want you,
could you be mine?
I know how it seems, I know what it says
a little fool of a girl, running into your arms
but I promise when the sun rises, I'll be long gone
It's just that I'm alone for the first time
in some while
I'm lonely in a foreign way
I lost my song
So, handsome man, say you will stay.