At the heed of your call from my lack of lust
You lost your head and ruined it for us
You gave up on me only after yourself
You broke my trust and our lasting health
And our lasting health seems to be in the question
But for me I can't see it in another direction
You say this will make us stronger
but don't you dare mention
What strength is,
if you don't know,
since your solution is fission
What a fool I could be if I chose this again
What a fool I was for allowing it to happen
What a fool I was for seeing you pretend,
and in the end, you shelf your friends
and I saw my space saved for later,
before the first night had blackened
Why can't you trust me?
Is it day or night
Why cant you love me?
I can, it's all right
Do you even like me?
Yes I just spend
every waking moment around you
in your orbit waiting to be ejected,
rejected,
as I saw in your nature and I knew you would do
Sun,
It's Pluto
I love you
long ago I was repelled, it's true
when my lens was coated in lazuli blue
And the time it took for that to reverse
was the time it took to trust you
The time it took for me to forgive you,
Was the time it took to forgive myself
And even I told the queen of swords 'he doesn't know himself'
I think it took her aback
how I said it like that
To his closest preceptor, set awry
But even she didn't refute what had been lost in your eye
And the fiery phoenix, the one you adore
Told me, you don't go back there anymore
She said 'you have the capacity for unconditional love'
As she circled around me
Burning from above
In the beginning I searched them
Over and over
So I doubted myself and said it was fine
What was I looking for?
I think it was you
And I thought I would find it in due time
Until you reversed
So I cursed
Myself,
Because I always do
And for now I plunge into the depth
Of a void surrounding you
If that's not love
I don't know what is
When I saw it coming from miles away
And chose to deal with this
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem