Lauren Harper

Matter That Doesn'T Matter At All. - Poem by Lauren Harper

Looking at pictures I see happy and carefree faces.
There are girls holding hands and elbows perfectly placed.
I look and I am filled with envy.
I wish one of those girls was me..

Walking passed lunch tabled filled to the brim with girls speaking whatever girls say to girlfriends.
matching bracelets adorn their wrists.
While I sit here alone with my fists.
Alone with my wish.

Pictures taken, pictures posted, memories created.
While I sit here like spoiled milk.
Why am I differnt?
Why can't I fit?
Did you intend that I be an experiment?
Why you watch and record the manner in which I wilt?

I watch as others speak of plans and of gatherings.
I listen as their inside jokes and laughs ring.
I sit and wait for my invitation.
I sit and wait for the day that I find my place.

Maybe I am too far gone.
Maybe I will always be on the outside looking in.
For I am nothing but space without direction.
I am matter that does not matter at all.

Other girls mingle among themselves;
describing stories of their current 'hell'.
They meet at coffee shops where they 'study' for exams.
When I sit at home wondering how in the world can I fix myself so that I might fill the mold so that I can fit in.

Topic(s) of this poem: alone, sad

Comments about Matter That Doesn'T Matter At All. by Lauren Harper

  • Frank James Ryan Jr...fjr (3/11/2015 7:15:00 PM)

    Commendable work, young lady... mellifluous structural movement throughout...excellent break-points as well as punctuational employment which all too many people don't seem to realize how significantly important this is in quilling free verse poetics...for it enables your audience to read your work as you would have recited it to them.
    Keep that pen pumping ~FjR~
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Poem Submitted: Wednesday, March 11, 2015

Poem Edited: Friday, April 24, 2015

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