Mixed Emotions Poem by beautiful imperfection

She told me that he liked me,
that it was really true,
and that was when I admitted
I truly liked him too.
But then one day she told him
what all along she knew,
and that was the day
he ripped my heart in two.
He told me he was sorry
but he didn't like me that way,
and I didn't have a clue
what to do or say.
So then my heart was ripped apart
and I didn't know who to believe,
my best friend,
or this close to perfect thieve?
The tears welled up but I held them in,
I coundn't even begin to concieve
the thought of showing him
how much he had made my heart bleed.
He said let's just forget this,
I'll pretend I never knew,
but in my heart I knew the truth,
forget is something I could never do.
For my love for you is so strong,
stronger than I ever knew,
it wasn't until today
that I realized my love is true.
so now I must watch
these other girls steal your heart,
knowing all the while
that mine is falling apart.
And as I watch you
fall madly in love,
my tears will fall,
secret and silent, like the dove.
For I'm afraid of showing you
what you've done to me,
so behind closed doors I'll cry these tears, flowing like the sea.
And I'll pretend to be happy
I'll hide my emotions within,
and pray that someday God brings me
someone that is better for me than him.

This is just about a silly childish crush, it was infatuation, not true love. I know that now, but at the time this was how I felt...