Moment Of Fear Poem by Kwenadi Gaaje

I am aghast
This burden over my shoulder
The cogitation of it
Gives me a consternation
I lay awake at night
Seek for answers
Face the delusions I contrived.

I catch the drift
I'm at a fleck of no return
I have a future to maintain
And a life to sustain.
I'm petrified
This whole thing is like a life dire breathing.

Hitherto
Here I am
Ally on my bed
Crying
and I'm trying
To face reality
I'm not ready for an of these.

I'm not ready
To walk down the path of this journey
It's like I'm sleeping
And dreaming
But No!
It's a reality
Awaiting me to face.

I sit back
And wonder for a moment
That if I could turn back the clock - Do things right
Clear all that I did that day
Things would be better.

I know
Procrastination took its part
All I ever wanted was to make a comfort out of my destination.

For my whole entire life
I hoped to build an empire
Yet! the journey is too long
I Long to reach to my destiny
For my dignity is there - waiting for me.

I am only 21
Striving to know my identity
Longing for my dreams to be true
I'm scared
Thou - One choice to make
What do I live with?
Career or a life?
I am scared