Musing Through The Ruse.. Poem by Gold Trybes

It's been almost a year
Since that call that changed everything
That morning in July
When everything took a dive
And months after am still reeling from that fall

I thought life would go on
Without you
I thought I would be fine
Without you
I pretended to be strong
Without you
I promised I was going to weather the storms
Without you
But months after,
Am still where you left off
Broken, shattered and still looking for a way out
Daily sulking through your absence

That man you left in July
Is now so broken, ..so fragmented
Lonely and in need of love
That man you left in July
Has been through hell and high-water
But am still here musing through the ruse
It will never all be the same
Because you walked away
With a huge part of me
All that joy, happiness I thought we shared
All now in the throes of what once was
All that love, attention and time
We both enjoyed
All gone, in the leave of your absence

Are you going to heal me
Or leave me broken as I am
Are you coming back
To right the wrongs
Or just lay back as you watch me hurt
Only time will tell..
As I figure this out the best I can..