My Black Dove Poem by Melissa Joy Chesky

When I start to fall for you again
It's just a matter of time before the bargaining begins
A bet on how far down I'll go
And hoping I can just finally say "no"
And whenever I'm around you I have to hide my face
Because the words of confession on my forehead are evident, engraved like my race
It's plain to see that you've meant so much to me
And I'm so oblivious to admit that I can't see
The indifference you feel towards my liking
But I can't help but trip and stutter when your eyes are striking
Into my heart, breaking apart my barriers and walls
The frontiers trying to block you out didn't thwart you at all
From pursuing, from using and abusing
My life and my soul is beaten and more confusing
After you waltz in, bursting through my door
I'm just a mess and an eyesore
After you rip on through the gates
Of my eventual fates.
But who the hell knew that my end would be you?
By someone that could be mesmerizing but truly cruel?
Who knew your home was here in my head, my eyes and my dreams?
You haunt my soul so successfully,
Not a day goes by without a "Where might he be? "
My mind never stops, never stutters or misses a beat
With the thoughts of you rushing my floodgates.
My body never recognizes you as a threat to my health,
You're the cancer in me that grows,
That multiples and throws
My heart in an inevitable twist.
Blah, blah, blah; ya'll get the gist
Of my heartache, it's all been said and re-said before
From the cynics and hopefuls, to the rich and the poor.
We've all had an unwanted love,
And you're mine; my cursed black dove.