My Darkest Hour Poem by Carole Davis

The darkness in the room enveloped me
So many emotions now I do see
Betrayal of trust, I can not understand your selfishness
I remember drifting in and out of consciousness
Pain tore through my body as I felt another contraction
Pain rips through my soul at the coldness of your reaction
Oh god I am so weak I called you on the phone
The pain is stronger now and the length has grown
When I started to bleed I asked you to come
The pain pounded me like the beating of a drum
'I refuse to help you' your answer came as such a blow
Without remorse or sorrow a heartless side you did show
I was shocked when you asked 'how long will this take'
My life and the life of your child were at stake
You stayed on the phone and listened to me plead
For support oh god how much I did bleed
I prayed for your help and you never came through
Your reason you said, you did what was best for you
The doctors told me our child may die
Sad news coupled with your indifferent reply
You hung up and left your child to die
Quietly, I whispered into the phone goodbye
A few months have passed our child is deceased
I wonder when you lost your soul and became a beast
My thoughts return to what brought me to that terrible place
So many moments of sadness I wish to erase
With all of the terrible things you have done
Selfish so low without valor unsung
Your actions will never define who I am
Memories will stay where I put them
When I reflect on my lifes darkest hour
I can be assured I have gained a quiet still power