My Darling Angel... Poem by Sarah Nicole Giroux

There are the days when I'm just oh so happy.
Ecstatic. on top of the world.
Amazed that I feel so light.careless..walking on air with these angels..
Yet, something is always missing.
I feel that shouldn’t there be more? is this all? ?

Then the days when just being amidst these angels is torture
Sweet pain..tears desperate to fall.
The talks..the smiles..
I cant bear them. I feel like they’re all evil in their own way..
Feel like telling them my heart’s deepest desire..wishes..
But I don’t know what they are..
I don’t scream..shout..even though for one day I want a devil-may-care tongue
Just once.
but I stay clammed up. who would I call? tell how I feel.
It’s not expected from me?
I have a great life..why cant I love it?
Cause I'm an ungrateful being.
I can never make a difference or make life easier for anyone,
Even though I'm supposed to..want to. Am yearning to..
I'm supposed to.