My First Love Poem by Skylynn g

So this isn't much of a poem, its more of a rant and if you came for a poem and your not interested in hearing me rant, then feel free to leave. Four years ago i met this boy Jordan on this game called gta 5, most of you may know what that is but anyways thats besides the point. We instantly became best friends, we were only 11 at the time. We would talk everyday and facetime. He used to call me his queen just as a joke though. Slowly he started changing. His personality along with his voice and other things. Not only that, he lost happiness and became extremely depressed. a year after being best friends he decided it would be a good idea to catch me off gaurd by sending me a very disturbing video of his wrists. I was scared and i didn't know what to do. I felt so bad but i thought it was my fault. So i decided to block him because maybe he would be better off without me. I was wrong.6 months later i unblocked him and apologized thinking that maybe he changed, i was wrong, again. He was worse and this time it was ACTUALLY because of me. I almost killed him. I was the only thing he had. This time i decided to stay and maybe help. I really tried i did. He told me days later that he wanted to die. I guess he got what he wanted now didn't he? I was so torn. I could barely breathe when i found out what happened. He was my first love and i will always remember that.


Rest in Peace my love.