My Hot 58 Poem by Travis Johnson

Whats goin on
My head hurts…and it rings
And at this point
I cant even…think
When I breathe
It seems like someone is chockin… me
I should take that poem back
Cause it seems...im never free
Can't even look in the mirror
My face is disgust-ing
To some
I'm in their life…as a bad dream
But I keep movin
Never want to give up…not me
And if you think my life is perfect
Then you should talk…to my wifey
Cause who I am
They don’t wanna…believe
Oh something happened
Blame it…on me
Cause my track record
Is worste…then it seems
I keep my head down
Not around my…family
Cause if they see something wrong
Then they ask me…these things
Like whats wrong
And I can't say…not a thing
Cause once I go to speak
My voice starts…cracking
Now im in the same position
Like if the cops said…freeze
Scared to even move
Open my mouth…but nothing
And there's no more friends
So who's that person…I can lean
Sometime's
I feel as small...as a seed
And other times
It seems I grow…into weeds
The past is my present
How can this ever…be
But it's still my fault
Who messed up…me
And til im carried by 12
It's gonna be brought up…like a dream
My nightmares
Alive…it's eatin me
but who can I talk to
That knows…what I mean
I jus wanna be loved
Without worry-ing
That im by myself
Verse the world…its scary
Here's my words
That I want to…SCREAM
And who would here it
NO ONE...BUT ME!