My Hurt! Poem by Emma Jane Rae

My life is a doorway,
and you walked in,
i was stupid enough to believe,
you really liked and cared for me,
but now, now i feel so tricked and used,
all my feelings have been abused,
theres a feeling inside me,
you said you dint want to cause,
my heart has been broken,
i'm feeling like dirt,
the feeling i'm feeling that would be hurt,
i'm feeling so low now,
i just want to cry,
i thought you liked me,
why did you lie?
i must be such a bad person,
for all the punishment i get,
but i thought things had changed,
the day that we met,
we've had a lot of up's and down's,
you caused me smiles, you caused me frowns,
i wish you hadn't said the things you said,
it's not like im rushing,
or want to get wed,
people say i'm too open, friendly and kind,
and that why so many people,
can mes up my mind,
i feel i should be angry,
and shout and swear at you,
nuit at the moment im hurting to much too,
i want you to cuddle me and say it will be o.k,
i want you to hold me and take this hurt away,
i know i can't do anything to change you mind,
no point in hoping you'll come around in time,
people say i should get on woth my life,
but i feel like my hearts been torn by a knife,
i want to believe you havent been messing me about,
i want to open up my soul,
and let this torture out,
i can't help but think you've got someone else,
and when i think about it,
it makes my heart sink,
i get the impression you don't care about me,
and how much you hurt me,
and you'd still like to see,
what is it you want?
is it me or not?
i'm beggin you to talk,
just let me know,
i don't want to be sinking so low,
i think i should go now,
and maybe close that door,
and who knows maybe it wont hurt anymore!