My Little One Poem by Sharni M

A few years into my adult life
You came to me by surprise.
I never thought this would happen to me
You gave me new dreams to visualize.
At the time we were still one
You were tiny and barely there,
But my love for you was incredible
There was nothing that could compare.
Unfortunately I couldn't keep you
Life itself had turned on humanity.
Before you came I was unstable
My mind fighting against reality.
'He' also was not prepared
Your arrival shocked him too.
I begged him to see it differently
But he said it was the right thing to do.
I wanted you so desperately
But I couldn't carry you alone.
It broke my heart but I made the choice,
To send you to a new home.
I remember seeing you on the monitor
So small and safe inside.
I remember the pain of you dying
I screamed and cried all night.
Your blood ran down my legs
And I curled up on the bathroom floor.
The despair I felt was overpowering
My sweet little one was no more.
Time has passed since that day
I have grown and seen new things.
But even now I still miss you
My little one with white wings