My Pain Through Words Poem by Johnny Checo

I don't know how to control this,
maybe that's what makes me think different
I am different from others,
I am blessed,

I will achieve great happyness one day,
but it will not come now,
but it will come soon,
soon does not mean now at this instant,
it can mean tomorrow,
the day after tomorrow,
the day after that,

so can you feel what I am feeling,
my sorrow,
my hardship,
the emptyness in me,
can you see the pain in my heart,

I hate being so distant from others,
but at this moment in my life,
you can't let anyone know,
how you truly feel,

In the short run,
you will get hurt,
but when you develop a relationship with someone you know,
you know,
how its going to turn out from the start,

with any relationship it's like this.
So when will the right relationship come to you,
who knows,
I don't think anyone knows,
everyone changes,
everyone goes,
different paths,
different directions,
different opportunities,

I wonder,
if anyone will ever read this,
will they actually understand where I am coming from,
can they feel my pain,
my pain through words,