~my Shadow's Confession~ Poem by Soulful One

i am tired
of being the one
in control
the one who
makes the decisions
the reasonable one
the responsible one

I want to let loose
and let go
to dropp everything
and do whatever
say whatever,
even if it hurts
someone else’s feelings

I want to rebel
against every
'should'
'must' and
'ought'
every obligation
every expectation

I want to disappoint and
revel in that
disappointment
I want to banish
other’s need
and expectation for me
to be and
do whatever
it is they need

I want to
let someone else
be in control and
yet still rebel against them

I want to
rob
steal and
lie

I want to take
and grab hold of
the destiny that is mine

I want to be responsible
to myself
and no one else

I want to be
unfaithful and
never again
be committed
to anything other than
the present moment

I want to
go wherever
do whatever
fuk whomever

I want to not care
about the consequences

I want to break
every rule of decency
and create new ones for
indecent
amoral
deplorable behavior

I want to
not care what
others think
to live without
conscience
and die
without regret

I want so much,
I want everything
and what I want most
is to authentically be me

without apology