My Sleeping Lover Poem by Crystal Hayes

i realized something just now.
i realized something as i was staring into the sleeping eyes of my lover.
If i were to actually die today, this very second
I would die a very loved and happy soul.
Everyday i have someone who is telling me he loves me
Everyone of his kisses tells me im beautiful.
most days i dont see it.
I get so caught up in jealousy of the past
that i cant see the fututer
the many more futures of lying asleep with my lover
I've realized something tonight.
I'm truly, utterly, can't back out, in love.