My Slide Into Darkness Poem by Kelvin Rush

Anxiously waiting to hear my fate
I feel dizzy and sick I'm in a terrible state
If I'm found guilty I may as well be dead
The thought of prison never leaves my head

My mental health is an intricate maze
I can't make sense of anything these days
My body is diseased full of delusion
Unable to cope with the pain and confusion

My slide into darkness happened so quick
I'm now on my knees destitute in conflict
One minute I was happy enjoying my life
The next I was thrown out of my home by my wife

She had an affair with my best friend Nick
I caught them together it made me feel sick
She said they were in love and I had to leave
I was hurt so much it was hard to believe

I was angry and bitter in total shock
I was after revenge I lost the plot
I went looking for Nick I had nothing to lose
He was outside the gym so I made my move

I was full of rage as I began my attack
He was going to get it there was no turning back
I drove my van as fast as I could
I saw the red mist as any man would

I hit him full force he flew in the air
He squealed like a murdered rat but I didn't care
I left him for dead as I sped away
Still raging with anger what more can I say

I was taken to court on the 1st of July
Ten years for GBH I wanted to die
My wife and Nick split up shortly after
My slide into darkness was a total disaster