My Toxic Relationship Almost Broke Me Poem by Lindokuhle Dawordplaymind Nkosi

I was afraid to voice out my opinions in some things, always felt dumb and small
I felt abused verbally
Emotionally and sometimes sexually and physically
See, my biggest mistake was to call you my everything
Not knowing by saying that means without you I'd be nothing
I used to think that without you i'd be left with little to live for
For you made me feel like a restiving door
I was emotionally obligated to you
Intensily attacthed to you
Not knowing that I'm losing myself in a process
I was all about you, and relied to you in times of distress
And before I knew it, my mood and happiness became fully relying on you
I really lost myself trying to please you
Like I was being changed to suit your needs
You never wanted to accept me as I am
I felt manipulated
We'd fight for petty things sometimes
Acussing each other on cheating on one another
At times you forced me to do things I don't wanna do
And ignored my pains when I'm crying
I was always put to second in everything you do
See, I loved you with every inch of my being
Despite how cautious people were telling me to be
Yet I never listen
For I was so deeply in love with you
So is you
I never wanted anyone else but you
And you felt the same way too
Time spent together were most memorable
You can even attest to that
But some part of me knew you weren't ready
Some part of me knew you were using me.